Sorry its been a while..
My head is in about 5 places at once right now. I dont know how to feel about anyone. I feel like my past is coming to haunt me, and the most frustrating past? I arent in the wrong, its a part of my past that wronged me, which is still trying to get back into my life and fuck my head up once again. As much as i am determined to block it out, it isnt working. Its the strangest feeling of contemplation.. you think that all is said and done and finished with, but you dont reallise that actually, its still there, you just decide to block it out.
I need someone here for me, but then again, i dont want people involved, i dont want to put suffering on other people. I want closure on the situation, but it isnt happening. I guess i just want to know what i want, because as much as i am on top of the world right now, untill i know exactly what i want, its hard for me to grasp it.
Laura X
