Having a bit of a hard time right now, figuring out things and deciding weather im being naive believing some people.

I feel like im being taken for a fool right now, but the most frustrating thing is i dont know if im just being paranoid. I wish there was no such thing as lies or secrecy. I wish everything that everyone said was the absolute truth, be it bad or good, then everyone would get used to it. But the worst feeling, one which im feeling right now is the feeling of being left in the dark. How do i know who to trust? How do i know what people are saying behind my back? These past few days ive been feeling quite introverted, some people mistake this for being arrogant sometimes, but believe me it isnt. Im sitting back and figuring a few things out right now, and deciding who to trust, but you know what ive found out so far? You cant trust a single soul apart from yourself. As much as people say theyre open about everything and couldnt care what people think about them, i beg to differ. For me, im always going to have walls up around me, and its to keep me safe from being betrayed, from feeling used. So if i havent been fully myself lately, its because ive had, and have a lot of thinking to do. Im not going to make the mistake of being treated the fool so theres some things im contemplating in my head right now, i just need the truth and thats it. Im just hoping the outcome is a positive one.

Laura x